Quote: I can't stop my self from calling with stupid excuses I feel that if I let contact fade I won't have a fighting chance, and the thought drives me crazy especially when I hear him confuse about our situation and that he want's to try again but does not know. I'ts driving me crazy.
I share your fear, but I've noticed that the contact is more positive if it's initiated by your X. Give him time to get his thoughts in order, to think things through, and perhaps worry that the window of opportunity is closing. When he does initiate, be as friendly and happy as possible and keep an open mind about potentially doing something together or at least talking for awhile. Play a little hard to get, but not so much that he doesn't think you're interested at all. It might help to realize that you can't make him try again. You can only be an attractive possibility should he be willing to make strides in your direction.
In the end, it's not the years in your life that count. It's the life in your years. Abraham Lincoln
It is hard to fail, but it is worse never to have tried to succeed. Theodore Roosevelt
