Quote: This transient relationship has worked for the last x months and you've been moving closer to each other? Why this sudden desire for something to happen NOW?
I don't know. I dropped off a picture I had bought for her daughter on Wednesday night and X acted like I was some stranger. Probably just a case of too much contact. I guess after that I just asked myself.."what are you doing? What is so damned important about this woman? Would you really be better off if you had her back?" You know, the usual questions one asks themself. From a rational standpoint I actually came up with more cons than pros.
There isn't anything that says it has to be a change "NOW", but I need to do something about myself to regain patience. So I'm detaching and giving myself time and space because there is no hurry and I can afford to spend a week or two finding my center again. Good luck to me. You know I've never done a week so it's unlikely I'll be successful this time, but I asked myself if I really gave myself or her a chance to explore separated and divorced life. I didn't-not a true separation and divorce like most people have. I think it would be wise to take a period of X-free time to give myself a chance to settle all this second guessing. She might find the time useful as well, but this break I want is about me.
In the end, it's not the years in your life that count. It's the life in your years. Abraham Lincoln
It is hard to fail, but it is worse never to have tried to succeed. Theodore Roosevelt
