You're human and there's absolutely nothing wrong with you. So you were playful, and maybe you showed a little vulnerability. Healthy people can't just shut off emotions. If this fills a need in her to still have you on a string, then shame on her. Let her be left with thinking about what may be missing in her life. Besides, maybe you left her with SOMETHING else to think about.
Don't be upset with yourself. Instead, you should feel good in knowing that inspite of all that she has done to you, you have still shown her caring and concern.
You are a very good person!
Love, Bethie .....now about that date......and do you always neck nibble? I'm just wondering.........