So much for aloof, disinterested, and friendly. I can't believe what I just did.
I brought my XW's son back. I fully intended to just drop him off and run. I shouldn't have went to the door. She stepped out and said "I found it", referring to this breast lump and wanted me to check it right there in her hallway. Anyone else have this experience. I know jdd, you get the whole works.
Anyway, then she was like "maybe you should check the whole thing rather than just that spot. Did I refuse? I should have, but didn't. So after taking my time examining the one side, she kind of suggested that perhaps while I was groping her that I should do the other side.
After that we talked a bit about her visit and then she made some comment about how I wished she was dead (or that it was cancer). Sometimes I wonder if she says that because she knows I'll deny it and grab her playfully, which is what I did. Well, to make a long story short, I nibbled on her neck and ears and she obviously enjoyed it, but made sure it didn't go anywhere. Things were fine when I left, but I kicked myself repeatedly that I did that. I think she got to fulfill her need to know that I'm still on the hook. Damn me.
Now I suppose I better just run away.
In the end, it's not the years in your life that count. It's the life in your years. Abraham Lincoln
It is hard to fail, but it is worse never to have tried to succeed. Theodore Roosevelt
