Thanks for the advice. That might be some of the problem; when I do hang out with her as a friend I don't enjoy it as much as hanging out with a regular friend. I don't enjoy her company as much as I used to, probably largely because there doesn't appear to be the "give-and-take" that you get when interacting with a friend. Honestly, if this was a woman I just met and had went on several dates with I don't think I'd be calling her for more. But I'll keep an open mind and see how things go.
Perhaps as Bruce pointed out it's just disappointment over unrealized expectations. On the other hand, who doesn't have that? If I went on a date and I expected decent conversation and that I wouldn't be criticized by my date and it was uncomfortable silence and perjorative comments all the time, I think I would be disappointed by my date. At the root of the matter is that most of us our divorced because the marriage didn't live up to expectations.
Gabe, no one has been going down. That's part of the problem.
In the end, it's not the years in your life that count. It's the life in your years. Abraham Lincoln
It is hard to fail, but it is worse never to have tried to succeed. Theodore Roosevelt
I picked up the rope; so much for that glorious detachment. I guess that tends to happen when you are alone. I talked to a friend last night who is also interested in a Vegas trip. Still need my plane ticket, just need to hear confirmation of the date.
Anyway, I called her this morning. She was in Fargo, so I guess I won't have to worry that she will want to do things together. That is the first call I've initiated in quite a while (for me, probably standard for many).
Anyway, here's the song snippet of the day...sappy.
Quote: Sometimes I feel that I'm so lucky to have had the chance to love this much God, give me a moment's grace 'Cause if I'd never seen your face I probably wouldn't be this way
In the end, it's not the years in your life that count. It's the life in your years. Abraham Lincoln
It is hard to fail, but it is worse never to have tried to succeed. Theodore Roosevelt
Quote: What happen to you don't care what happens?
Ding ding ding ding!!! 60,000 dollar question. Am I just lonely? Could the role formerly played by XW be filled by another?
Ya know what is nice about calling her for the last 3 or 4 months? She sounds pleased to hear from me. That wasn't always the case in the beginning. No "what do you want" tone. But sometimes my youngest son has an impatient tone on the phone, so I guess you can't analyze their phone etiquette as a sign that they are happy to hear from you.
Anyway, I wish I could answer the question you asked. My attitude is all over the place. I need to level out, but I'm afraid that time won't come until I've put her behind me.
In the end, it's not the years in your life that count. It's the life in your years. Abraham Lincoln
It is hard to fail, but it is worse never to have tried to succeed. Theodore Roosevelt
Anyway, nothing new to report. Just whiling away my Sunday. I did watch "40 year old virgin" last night. It was hilarious. I was shocked that some lady brought 4 kids with her. They look liked a range of age from 9 to 14 or so. The show was completely inappropriate for that age. I bit my tongue to keep from telling her so. Lucky kids, they got to see a huge tit. he he he
Nothing to report about X except wishful thinking daydreams. Although, I'm never sure in these thoughts what my own response would be.
Here's the song of the day....
Quote: I don't stop breathing every time the phone rings My heart don't race when someones at my door I've almost given up thinkin' your ever gonna call I don't believe in magic anymore.
I just don't lie awake at night Asking God would get you off my mind It's getting better all the time It's getting better all the time.
In the end, it's not the years in your life that count. It's the life in your years. Abraham Lincoln
It is hard to fail, but it is worse never to have tried to succeed. Theodore Roosevelt
Wes, since you like listening to country, go try Toby Keith:
But every now and then
I wanna talk about me Wanna talk about I Wanna talk about number one Oh my me my What I think, what I like, what I know, what I want, what I see I like talking about you, usually, but occassionally I wanna talk about me I wanna talk about me
You you you you you you you you youyouyouyouyou I wanna talk about me
I wanna talk about me Wanna talk about I Wanna talk about number one Oh my me my What I think, what I like, what I know, what I want, what I see I like talking about you, usually, but occassionally I wanna talk about me I wanna talk about me
Okay, how about this? Still country, but with a stronger twist. BTW, I've been such a good boy today. No calls to X. I actually have been doing some long neglected duties around the house and making up some other ones. Anyway, here's the song...Keith Urban
Quote: Take your records, take your freedom Take your memories I don't need'em Take your space and take your reasons But you'll think of me And take your cat and leave my sweater 'Cause we have nothing left to weather In fact I'll feel a whole lot better But you'll think of me, you'll think of me
In the end, it's not the years in your life that count. It's the life in your years. Abraham Lincoln
It is hard to fail, but it is worse never to have tried to succeed. Theodore Roosevelt
I guess that tends to happen when you are alone. I talked to a friend last night who is also interested in a Vegas trip. Still need my plane ticket, just need to hear confirmation of the date. 
