I will be visiting my D25 in the USA for most of June (her H is in Iraq, so she needs her mommy for some moral support), and I am really nervous about leaving H. I know this is silly, but there you are - can't help it. I wonder if he will use this time to get together with OW again, after all. But, my D13 will be here, so realistically, I know that it will be difficult for him to do. This will be a test of how much trust I have gained back for my H. I suspect, not very much! Sigh!
On another note ... trying to get 4 assignments done before I leave, so that I won't have to do them while visiting. Quite stressful, but exciting too.
I am learning each day, that being me is okay. I like myself, and don't need to be validated by anyone else. I haven't made any friends here yet, but I am pretty happy being by myself. I have been thinking of things I would like to do with my life, i.e. finish my personal fitness instructor certificate, paint again, take up a new sport, and start writing again. I used to write poetry, but haven't in a long time. I took a creative writing course last year, and enjoyed it very much. So! I will start writing a book when I get back from my long holiday with D25. I have so many ideas and thoughts, and have been writing those down.
And so, I am still excited about my life, and will continue to work on R with my H, without giving up my dreams.
Me:57 H:52 M:28 Got another lawyer last year and filed. D35,S/D twins28,D22 EA4/04 End? Who knows? "Life is like a mirror. Smile at it and it smiles back at you." — Peace Pilgrim
for some moral support), and I am really nervous about leaving H. I know this is silly, but there you are - can't help it. I wonder if he will use this time to get together with OW again, after all. But, my D13 will be here, so realistically, I know that it will be difficult for him to do. This will be a test of how much trust I have gained back for my H. I suspect, not very much! Sigh! 
