As much as I can relate to your feelings about your calling and VT and the such, I would stick with it. For me it was pretty key in making sure I had things to keep me busy and mind off the sitch. Also I have seen my W attitude turn around as her spirituallity is rebuilt. As far as the new W, for me it always been a matter of time. Eventually they become accustom to you and you become one of the old timers. Also being involve with the new W will do this faster, otherwise you'll just be someone that hasn't ever clicked with the group.
By the way, wish me happy anniversary. I'll tell you more about that on my thread.
The whole thing about your previous M, wow that's tough. Maybe I'll understand more about that when this all plays out for me. Somehow I don't think I'll get a full grasp on what you experienced. Perhaps that's part of your H problem, he doesn't understand, or could he. Maybe he has tried but it just isn't in his chemistry or background.
Hope things went well for you with school, in some ways I miss those days. My biggest challange these days is trust and understanding. There has been positives, but of course like yourself I'm just trying to find out if it's all show. Well, I guess I just buckle down for the long haul.
