Went to my C the other day, and it was a great session. I have started working on past issues - my family, feelings and events that have not been dealt with in my previous M and when I miscarried twins at 5 months, self-esteem issues, trusing myself, and continuing to deal with my present feelings within my R with my H (although everything there seems to be going well, except H has been rather introspective lately, about his life and what he wants to do with it - he wants to take a break from church, work on lowering stress, thinking about the future, re-assessing his definition of success, etc. Or, at least, that's how I am understanding from him - from what he has said, and by his actions). I support him in this, and have been feeling somewhat philosophical and introspective about life, as well. I think we all go through periods like this - it's a good time to re-evaluate beliefs, feelings, thoughts, and so on, and set new goals, or re-commit to old ones.
I found this wonderful quote by Rabindranath Tagore: "Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers, but to be fearless in facing them. Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain, but for the heart to conquer it". I posted this on someone else's thread, but wanted to put it here for myself, and anyone else who may wonder onto my thread. It has certainly made me think about the person I am inside. I have never been one to be swayed by fear - shyness, maybe, but not fear. However, I don't consider myself as courageous, more stubborn and dogmatic. I may be wrong, but sometimes I feel that this lack of hesitation despite being fearful has not always been a good thing. I want to work on being more discerning in the obstacles I want to overcome (despite the fear). Sometimes, one can just go around the obstacle rather than hammering away at it. On the other hand, I don't want to ignore or deny things that do need to be dealt with. I guess we are all on a journey, a learning process, and I hope it leads me to some sort of wisdom. Ultimately, I suppose, it's all a matter of balance, being at peace with what is, and being thoughtful when making a stand, or moving forward with a plan of action.
Anyway, that's muh ramblin's for the day. Hehehehe!
Me:57 H:52 M:28 Got another lawyer last year and filed. D35,S/D twins28,D22 EA4/04 End? Who knows? "Life is like a mirror. Smile at it and it smiles back at you." — Peace Pilgrim
