Moving On with H

[BeingMe]

Hi Phoenix! Yeah, I am being as supportive as I am able at this time, considering that I have a lot on my plate, study-wise, right now (have exams this week). The only thing that concerned me, was that that kind of statement smacks of MLC, and I really don't want to go through all that - not again! Other than that, he seems happy enough. Phones me several times a day, asking what I'm doing, expressing how bored he is, and so forth.

I do want him to be happy in his career. Unfortunately, I am not very sympathetic (try not to show it, though) because he has reached his career goal, with my constant support. I put my own career dreams on hold, to be the mom and wife, and letting him do what needs doing to get the career he felt he wanted, and that would support our family. I worked long, boring jobs at secretarial positions, which would have stifled me except I was always lucky to be able to enjoy the people I worked with (please, don't think I feel like some kind of martyr or anything - I was grateful I could do that job and that I managed to get them - they helped with our family's income quite a bit). Now, I feel it is my turn to get some career satisfaction, so I would love for him to be supportive of my goals, and he is to a certain extent, but it doesn't help when he is negative about his job. Oh well! I guess, I am just a little nervous that I'm going to have to put aside my goals (I already had to change my studies from full-time to long-distance because he wanted to move here for the job he now has), in favour of his, again, but I won't next time (if there is a next time). I will continue to validate his feelings, and offer my support for his new venture, as long as it doesn't impact my studies and our family's lifestyle, and if it does, then I am going to have to re-evaluate our R. If he can't give what he was always willing to take, then I'm not sure if I can be with him. But, I'll worry about that if we get to that bridge.

Just doin' a little venting. I am not very worried, or angry - just thoughtful about it, and making sure I am prepared for whatever may come, and ready to set my boundaries. Now, I can go back to my books, and put it completely out of my mind.

Did you watch the General Conference? We couldn't find it on our cable TV, so I'm going to have to read it online. If you did, was there anything that stands out for you? Anything your W took away from it?