Had a great session with C this week - she is really able to get what I say, and calls me on certain things. For instance, I tend to put myself down, and she was able to point that out. I don't even realise I do it, but I am getting better at acknowledging my good points, and being comfortable with compliments, and such. It's just that I grew up in a very unsupportive family. Being one of the younger kids, our older siblings were always careful to make sure we knew our place, and that there wasn't anything special about us. I live with that legacy today, but am getting over it. Sad, really, but that's life. My parents, also, were not very affectionate, or complimentary. No matter our achievements, there were no pats on the back (I do, however, realise that they loved us, and did the best they could, and I hold no grudge against them). So, ultimately, we need to be satisfied, and proud of ourselves, despite the opinions (or lack thereof) of those in our families. It's been a long and hard lesson to learn.
This has impacted most areas of my life, including my M. I always feel that if I try and expand my skills or talents, that I will fail because I wasn't confident enough in myself. That has changed these last couple of years. Now, I feel, one must take risks and jump into the deep end.
I have certainly come to believe in myself - at last.
Me:57 H:52 M:28 Got another lawyer last year and filed. D35,S/D twins28,D22 EA4/04 End? Who knows? "Life is like a mirror. Smile at it and it smiles back at you." — Peace Pilgrim
