Moving On with H

[BeingMe]

Thanks Phoenix! What I love about my life now, is that I am no longer pretending to be upbeat - I really am! I truly feel I am at last awakening to some truths about life. I am not talking so much about the spiritual side, although that is very important, but about our inner lives which is reflected outwards. I used to worry so much about whether my H still loved me, whether the children will be okay, will my friends and family care about me, or like me, what I look like, how I act, that it became quite an obsession. I was so insecure. But, at last, I am beginning to see that it doesn't matter. I will not change who I am inside, so that someone will love me or like me. I like myself, and that's enough!

Counselling helps me, in that I am able to verbalize what's spinning around in my head. I am someone who has far too many interests (from geology, to religion, to politics, art, writing, fitness and health, and the list just goes on and on), and passions, that I find it difficult to focus sometimes. I am now trying to focus on fitness, while also expanding my creative side. On top of that, I am continuing to try and be a good mom, and wife, and make a new circle of friends. And, the counsellor helps me do that.

Anyway, back to ye ol' books!