I know, there won't be any "grand gesture" - not going to happen. I think what bugs me is that he seems to expect things to continue as if nothing happened. And, maybe that is the way it should be. I still don't feel safe and secure in my M, and that's probably going to take a long time.
I still plan to continue studying, and getting a career for myself so that I can support myself, if need be. I never want to rely on a man, financially or emotionally, ever again. I found myself, after 20 years of looking after a home and family (most of the time working at low paying jobs just to have the extra money that my H couldn't supply, so never improving my career prospects because we concentrated on my H getting educated, and moving up in his career), looking into a dark tunnel where I am dependent, and not knowing who I am. I think a lot of women have gone through this. We make so many sacrifices for our families, but we get nothing for it when our DH's decide to go through a midlife crisis.
I think I will see a C, for myself. I need to get focussed about my life, to find the real me, and to move past this whole episode and learn and grow from it.
More later.... I am finding the studying takes up so much of my time. Anatomy and Physiology is hard.
Me:57 H:52 M:28 Got another lawyer last year and filed. D35,S/D twins28,D22 EA4/04 End? Who knows? "Life is like a mirror. Smile at it and it smiles back at you." — Peace Pilgrim
