Moving On with H

[BeingMe]

We have made the move - somewhat traumatic, but over now! We are in a temporary, furnished apartment, until our new home becomes available at the end of the month. Can't wait!

Relationship-wise, things are going fairly well. Mostly, we are happy, but I still don't trust my H, still feel unsafe. We start MC'ing tomorrow, so I hope we can resolve these issues.

One thing that has made me feel somewhat nervous yesterday ... I discovered that the OW "accidentally" sent my H a school reunion invitation, then sent him an email to apologise for doing so. When he finally had broken it off with her, he had told her not to contact him again, so I can't help feeling this is her way to try and re-establish contact. She had sent it to his hotmail account which he never checks (he changed his other email addresses and cell phone number, but couldn't cancel the hotmail account). I had checked it and found the emails from last month, and he didn't know about it. I told him, and he assured me that he has no intention of reconnecting with her. Well, we will see. At the moment, I am feeling a little heartsick, insecure, and trapped. Just 5 months ago, I had decided to move on with my life, was at peace with that decision. I had a job, was planning on furthering my studies (which I still intend to do), was looking for my own place to live, was in a city where I had friends and family. Now, I have no idea what I have, but will try and go with the flow, and see where it takes me. I have little choice in the matter now.