Ok...you say the only R worth having is to be soul-mates....but were you and your W EVER that? I don't mean to sound cruel here...but from what you post here, hon...it doesn't sound like you two have been that. I guess the way I see the term "soul-mates" is that both people feel that connection.....if only one of you views the R that way, then you probably aren't that.
Something to think about anyway, if you truly believe that's the only R worth having.