I am so sorry that this did not turn out how you wanted. I am even more sorry that you H was so callous in his response to you. Maybe he will give you a more rounded reply in a day or two. Until then sit back some breath slowly and cry. Let it out. Only then when you are in a better mindset decide where to go from here. Again I am so sorry. But you are stronge you will get through this and something good will come of it all.
