Yes, but it's not as painful as it sounds - as the needle is so fine. The bit that hurts a little is when you have to depress the plunger to dispense the drug into you, that stings a little, then the injection site gets a bit red and itches afterwards, and it's a bit sore where I do my jeans up, so I reckon I will just wear dresses until this is over, LOL.

The worst part is the operation where they will pierce the vaginal wall with a needle so they're gonna have to give me stacks of painkillers afterwards. Thankfully, because I suffer from VS, they're gonna knock me out before they do it.

I have always wanted to do this, though. The dr's misdiagnosed my problem when I was 17 and told me they didn't think I could have children. I remember sitting in the car outside the clinic, with H, bawling my head off about how I wanted a family.

So we decided to prove them wrong and at 18 I became a mother DD1 was such a good baby, she was a joy to mother. By the time she was a year old, I made enquiries about being a donor, but never followed it through.

My life was really busy with being a wife and having more babies and work etc that I never had the time.

But on top of this I also had vaginal bleeding in my pregnancy with DD1, and almost lost her and I have lost another three of my babies as well as that so I really know what it is to grieve and desperately want a baby and not have one - plus helping others takes my mind off me and X and makes me feel better about being non-custodial to my older 3.

Jo.