I sent X an email finalising my plans for Christmas (hence his contact arrangement with DD4). I invited him and DD's over for Christmas Day but said it didn't matter if he didn't come because I'm getting a DVD player for the TV (I only have one in the computer) and we were going to watch loads of new films and eat chocolate till we burst.
After sending the email I went to the IVF clinic.
I was really worried and asked loads of questions beforehand because I am actually contraindicated on more than one point. They had to consult with the dr.
I have been told I may get migraines because I usually have them, and that it may make me upset/weepy or angry but these feelings will only be for the duration of the drugs and won't last.
They said they'd have to blood test me for my prolactin levels (since I've only just stopped breast feeding DD4).
I can only hope that I can trust what they tell me.
Anyway, after being given the all clear, the nurse showed me what to do and my hands were shaking so much when I put the needle in it was silly. It didn't hurt at all like I expected it to, but I am a bit sore now.
I have to inject every day until about 30th August. These drugs will shut down my ovulation. They reckon it might shut down my sex drive too but that's okay since I'm not having any. After 30th August I have to have a 'down regulation' scan to see that my reproductive system has shut down properly, then I'll have to start injecting the stimulating drugs - lovely!
Please pray for me that I won't get any terrible side-effects.
Got home feeling pleased that I actually managed to inject myself without fainting, and phoned Andy but he didn't answer.
He phoned back, saying he was at Home Bargains and he'd be with me in a minute (Home Bargains is round the corner from my house).
He came in and asked me 'Have you got any coffee? I'm parched.' So I got a drink for DD4 and a coffee for him.
While I was in the kitchen making the drinks, he said that Walmart were selling DVD players for �25. I said that's cheap, I want one of those for Christmas. He said I know, that's why I told you. That was thoughtful of him to mention it.
I told him about the IVF clinic and how he might need to help with DD4 after he comes back from holiday if I get a migraine. I also told him I might get upset, start crying or get angry with him and just to ignore it because it's not me, it's the drugs.
He laughed and said it sounds like normal to him.
(Yeah, didn't you know, I'm sarcastic, aggressive and I keep threatening to swap him for a rampent rabbit ).
He asked me how many needles there were and why on earth I would want to do that. I said I've had 4 babies and now I wanted to give someone else the chance. I told him I have wanted to since I was 19 but I was too busy then.
'Yeah' he said, 'making more babies.' (wink, wink). Honestly, men!
For some reason I can't remember, we talked about Home Furnishings (I think it was because he went to Home Bargains) and he told me a friend of his was moving near me (I resisted the urge to say 'who? Your little fuckwit?') - instead I just said 'oh that's nice'.
He asked how my best friend was, so I told him and asked if I'd seen this other friend of mine. I said no, not lately, and that everyone has family so they don't want to visit me, but never mind, I can just work. I would not have written my book if I was out partying.
He said I was a workaholic. I said 'Do you think so?'
'Yes' he said, 'I've never met anyone as driven as you.' I said I wanted to to pay off debt etc.
Then we talked about my email to him re Christmas plans and he asked me where I was going in November. I told him London. He asked me where I was going in December, I said I'm taking DD4 to a Christmas Fantasy weekend and there's going to be a party and a pantomime, Christmas markets and Santa for the kids. He said it sounded fun. He didn't mention whether he and DD's would come over, but that's okay, I am just going to leave it up to him now I've offered.
Then he went, after having spent an hour with me.
He's off camping for a week now, so we won't see anyone, and I can't take DD's to the park next week as they are still away, but I'm going to take DD4.
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