I'm sorry you're going through this. I understand how you feel in so many ways.
Maybe I'm back to being angry b/c I'm pushing myself too hard to bring back loving feelings, etc. They're just not freakin there for me, is that OK? Today I'm just sick of Michele and Dr.Phil and whoever else telling me that the fate of my M is in my hands, that I have the power to change it. That love is a verb and I can bring back loving feelings. Loving feelings is just too damn much to ask for right now. But limbo sucks too. Ya know? Of course you do. Yes Dear, it's absolutely OK that you feel the way you do. Dr. Phil and Michele arent going through this, you are. They can give us hope that we can improve things when we change our attitudes and action, but they don't have to do it. Even though we can understand your feelings, we're not going through it either. You have a right to not feel loving all the time, and to feel like you with your H would disappear. Pretty normal under the circumstances I think.. I feel that way alot. Like I want the prob to go away and be left alone.
Take care of yourself Heather. Don't push yourself too much right now. As much consideration as you'd give your H, or a close friend, give at least that much too yourself. You can't do everything girlfriend!! I'm beginning to think the best thing I can do when in doubt is to do nothing. I hate that limbo feeling too, but maybe that limbo can be a freeing thing if we just let ourselves live there and not worry until we're capable of doing what we need to do. Let someone else worry for a change!
