Learning to trust myself II

[heatherg]

After H spoke with the kids last night, we talked. Per NY's advice, I didn't bring up the 'irrational' conversation. I just spoke as if it was any other night. You know, based on the definitions I found, I would entertain a conversation on how he viewed my actions over this past year. I would. But the terms he's using indicate that it's a pretty weighty subject and can't be used as a preface to make another point. Ya know? You can't just throw in these huge deragatory slams and then move on to some supposedly even bigger point. So, I'm definitely still thinking about this b/c it is bound to come up again and I want to be able to clearly respond. But I will not bring it up I promise.

In a post somewhere on Anna's thread I think, she spoke about being impeccable with her words. I think that is something I too should work on...

For reading, I'm in the middle of Relationship Rescue and just started Women Who Run with The Wolves. Relationship Rescue really is a good book, I've found it to be practical and straightforward. I also bought the KLA CDs and listen to them in my car. I'm going to start getting more audio books b/c my time is so limited, but I do spend a lot of my time in the car.

There is a mngmt meeting for work that is invitation only to Annapolis and I was invited. Spouses are also invited and H told me he would come so I RSVPd for both of us. I was really looking forward to it because we've never really went anywhere just the two of us, away from the kids. I mean even to have a dinner without the kids would be really unusual for us. I mentioned the trip last night and he said he didn't realize it was a Thurs, Fri, Sat and that he'd have to take two days off as opposed to one. So, now he said he might not be able to go. Depends on what is going on at work. I was disappointed. Even if he still goes, the disappointment won't entirely disappear b/c he clearly doesn't get it how important time alone is and why it needs to be a priority for us. Sigh.