Thanks Anna. I feel out of my depth with my sitch too
I have thought a little about forgiveness. I cannot help but hear H's words in my head whenever I think about it though....."Oh, isn't that convenient?? The person who cheats on her H, has never been sorry, thinks she can still do whatever she wants, is now forgiving herself for what she did. Isn't that nice?"
We leave to head back to VA today. 15 hours in the car, H will inevitably bring up the events of the "vacation". I think my goal is to be silent, maybe try some validation?
"Happiness is a butterfly, which, when pursued, is always just beyond your grasp, but which, if you will sit down quietly, may alight upon you."