Oh, and one other thing. I took my wedding rings off Tuesday to make a beef roast, I had to put some sort of rub on this raw hunk of meat. Anyway, I haven't been able to bring myself to put my rings back on. I'm losing steam guys. My heart just isn't in it since Tuesday. I'm doing what I have to do to make things go as smoothly as possible, but I'm not feeling much but hatred for my H these days. I know I should put my rings back on. I know I should. And I know I will when I go home b/c I don't want anyone asking any questions.
Ok, just one more thing. H just called and says "what's going on?" I say "Nothing, I was just getting in the shower, did you just wake up?" He says yes (I've already tried to call him twice). My parents have dr appts today in an adjoining city and I told H last night that if they were going the right direction, we would ride into his parent's house with them. Otherwise we would need him to come get us. He wasn't very happy. I had forgotten I wouldn't have a vehicle. Gas is like 3.30/gal here and it's 15 miles between his parents' house and mine. So I tell him that my parents were going the other direction and he would have to come get us. He says " What? " I said "H it isn't that big of a deal, if you were still coming out here, we would have driven your truck out here last night anyway." He says "Or I would have just kept them in town". The way he words things is so much like he is in absolute control of everything!! 'I would have just kept them in town'.....ARGH. I said, "I'll pay for the gas". He starts being pissy again and I just say "I'll pay for the gas, alright then?" And he says "Fu#k this" and hangs up on me.
"Happiness is a butterfly, which, when pursued, is always just beyond your grasp, but which, if you will sit down quietly, may alight upon you."
