Thanks you guys. I appreciate you!! I wish I had girlfriends in real life. I have a couple college friends that still live in the area and I should try to be more social with them. Going back to the "public perception" though, I just don't feel like I have anything worthy to contribute to a friendship. I'm a mess and not much fun to be around b/c I can't think of things to say anymore that don't somehow relate to my creepy M. Someone please tell me that will pass in time and I will be fun loving again.
H comes home tomorrow....my time and space has come to an end. It's back to real life which will hopefully not be as bad as the real life before he left. I need to focus on the positives right? Ok, I'm anxious to get back to karate. I plan to start exercising again, even if it's just a mile on the treadmill~started my crunches and push ups tonight. It will be nice to have help with the kids. They are at an age where they fight constantly and that is very wearing on my nerves!! Tucker is 4 and Elora is 2 and it amazes me that they fight, but they do. One will actually say that the other is looking at them, as though I am supposed to do something about it, silly wabbits. They don't seem to understand my response that if they look the other way, they won't know the other is still looking at them, lol. I'm also looking forward to not having to pay someone to cut the grass. Looking forward to the nice moments H and I have, when we have them. That's all I can think of. Negative ones keep popping up, but I'm shutting them down. I'm going to be ok, this is going to be fine because I will make it fine if it starts to not be fine.
"Happiness is a butterfly, which, when pursued, is always just beyond your grasp, but which, if you will sit down quietly, may alight upon you."
