I've been DB'ing for exactly two weeks now, and I at least feel a whole lot better than I did before. My W and I chat briefly on a daily basis, she even attended a family function w/ me over the weekend. Our interactions have been perfunctory, although both of us are quick to point out to the other better ways we could have phrased a statement or made a request. And we have both validated each other's attempts to improve. She seems slightly more at ease in my presence now that the OM potential is on the table. Don't know when she particularly will act on it. I suppose I can keep wishing that she comes to her senses. After the conversation we had the other evening and doing some follow up reading of DR, I feel like I should move to MLC forum. I've been surprising myself lately at how much I'm willing to tolerate, but I can't help but feel that I've just given her permission to do some real extensive damage to the marriage, as opposed to trying to stop her before she heads down a dark road. But again, I remain remarkably calm when I consider the possibilities. I did join a gym and have a program set up for me. I was planning on going before and after work, but she called me all concerned that it was ridiculous for me to follow such a program considering my recent level of inactivity and my family's history of heart disease. She said, if I go through with this and have a heart attack, she'll kill me. Rather than reply with my first instinct, "you just don't want me working out because you'll have to watch our S6 more often which leaves you no time for "fun and games", I sincerely thanked her for her concern, and said I hadn't really considered the negative consequences, that I was just highly motivated and wanted to take advantage of the mood. She was very appreciative that I listened to her. So, am I making baby steps, or reading way too much into it?
