I just had another heart-to-heart with H.......and for the first time in quite some time, I am feeling a little optimistic about US, but I am also very scared.
I am in tears right now as I type this.... .... I am just so afraid and uncertain and so confused.
He is saying what I want to hear...that he loves me...very much...and he wants to be a family again and start doing more together as a family should...that he wants to show me and make me feel romance and passion again...he wants to make me feel special again...H actually asked me with "passion" like he used to long ago, "What will it take for me to sweep you off your feet, Valerie? Because that is what I want to do."
He again said he wants to move back in but knows that would be a mistake, so his goal to be back in the house is the 1st of the year....2 months....If it doesn't happen, he wants to sell the house, pay off everything, then split it all 50/50.
He also said that none of the MCs have called him back yet either, so first thing in the morning, he's going to be on the phone again (I didn't bring it up; H did on his own).
Why do I feel sooo scared???
Could it really work?
Could we really be happy together?
How can I feel like I want to try but then I don't at the same time???
I want to believe H, but I can't.
I feel like a mental mess right now....I hear the bath bubbles calling my name . They sound really good.
Thanks for listening.
Valerie
"I can't change the direction of the wind, but I can adjust my sails to always reach my destination."
Valerie
"I can't change the direction of the wind, but I can adjust my sails to always reach my destination." ~ author unknown
.... I am just so afraid and uncertain and so confused. 
. They sound really good.
