Hey there, cally . Long time, no write ! How have you been?
Quote: WOW you havre grown SO MUCH!! I see so much strength in your posts.
Thanks!!! I see it, too!!!
Quote: Try not to worry about the counseling. You put it out there. If he really wants it he will make it happen.
Oh, I'm not worried at all. I was just stating what I think is going to happen...or not happen .
Quote: One thing I noticed is that a friend left a message for another woman on YOUR machine for your husband?? Oh my word I would have been fuming! Sounds like you handled it way better then I ever could have.
Yes, that's what happened...the phone call, that is. I've never talked to that co-worker before, so I don't know...it was most likely a slip of the tongue...confusion...or something ...but I don't think H is seeing anyone. I can't say for sure, but I don't think he is. I think the reason he got sooo angry with me was because I asked him such a question...I wasn't accusing him of anything...I just asked, but he didn't like it .
Quote: He should just make up his mind and stop putting you through this back and forth stuff.
Yeah, I wish he would, too ! No, seriously though, I know he's just very confused, and so am I at times ...but I just want to move on with my life either way, and I feel like I can't do that completely when he's constantly changing his mind.
Quote: Since he has left have you two been intimate at all?
Once ...but you know what the sad thing was? For me at least? It was that there was no emotional connection in it for me...???...It was just sex, and nothing more. I used to feel like "one" with H, but I didn't that time. Like I said, it was just sex. Afterward, H asked me if I was alright with what happened. I told him yes, why wouldn't I be? He seemed to have an uncertain look on his face...like he was confused.
Trust me...if H was physically intimate with anyone else, he would've definitely used a condom. You've got to believe me on that one...he just would. I know that about him for sure.
Ok, I'll be back later to do a little journaling...I spoke with H again this morning after he returned from Oregon.
Valerie
"I can't change the direction of the wind, but I can adjust my sails to always reach my destination."
Valerie
"I can't change the direction of the wind, but I can adjust my sails to always reach my destination." ~ author unknown