A little journaling:

I talked a little with H yesterday. I can't remember if I mentioned it or not, but H's weekday with the boys is now Wednesday instead of Tuesday. This way S9's Tae Kwon Do class doesn't interfere with their quality time together. Anyhow, it seems H forgot that this was the new arrangement because he was talking about going to play in the weekly poker tournament . I reminded him, he said he was sorry... ...so we went ahead and planned for the boys to be with him this afternoon when they get out of school.

Anyway, I asked him again about MC....what a surprise....he still hasn't done a thing about it but said that he would today. He said, "I will. Don't worry, ok? I'll do it." I told H, "I'm not worried, but I want to SEE what you're saying to me, H. Not just HEAR it. Do you understand what I'm talking about? I need to see that you mean what you're saying to me." H said, "Well...are you sure this is what you want to do, Valerie? Do you want to try and work things out or do you want to just say no and be done with me?" I said, "I don't know, H...but I think if we go to C, it might help us BOTH figure out what we want. Ok?...I just don't know. Is that what's keeping you from calling? Because you're waiting for my answer first? Do I have to give you answer right now? I'm sorry, but I can't do that." H said I didn't have to give him an answer now, and he would call a MC today.....mmm hmm...

I need to get out and do something this weekend. I feel the need to just get away from my sitch altogether ! The kids are spending the entire weekend with my parents, so I'll definitely have the opportunity to do something .

Thanks for listening.

Valerie

"I can't change the direction of the wind, but I can adjust my sails to always reach my destination."

Valerie

"I can't change the direction of the wind, but I can adjust my sails to always reach my destination." ~ author unknown

"Piecing is not for the faint of heart." ~ sage