H stopped by yesterday afternoon...I'm not exactly sure for what, but he said he needed something from the garage. Anyway, we chit-chatted a bit, and before he left, I asked him if he had found a MC yet. He said, "No, I've been busy all day. I had to go do ABC and XYZ, then....I'm sorry. I just didn't have the time." I said ok and that I was only asking.
H called me this morning to tell me about a job opportunity he might have with a former co-worker. It's the same thing he was doing before...working home and garden shows, selling and installing satellite dish systems....which means more travelling...more being out on the road...less time with the family again.
I know it's a job, and it will pay the bills.....but the M cannot be worked out if he's still going to be away from us.
Anyway, he also told me about his upcoming tests today in his class. Lots of mathematical computations and chemistry stuff...it sounds very hard ...so I told him good luck, and I knew he would do well. I almost wanted to ask again if he looked into MC this morning (I'm certain he had the time), but I didn't. I guess I didn't want to feel the disappointment again of H not following through with turning his WORDS into ACTIONS. I want to SEE that he's serious about MC, but I think he's waiting to hear me say that I will give him another try....I'm not prepared to do that. I want to see that he means what he says. In fact, I remember asking him about MC (if he had looked into it) on Sunday night when he came to drop off the kids. He said, "I was hoping you could help me out with that. I thought maybe you'd know where to look for one." I told him, "All you need to do is pick up the phone book, H. It's that simple...but make sure they are a MC. Not just an ordinary one." He didn't say anything.
So it's Tuesday now, and I'm sure he didn't bother looking this morning...and I'm sure he wasn't busy either. I'm not going to do it for him. I already told him to his face that if he wants me to even think about trying again, he WILL HAVE to go to MC....I just wonder how long it will be until he makes the call...if he ever does .
Thanks for listening.
Valerie
"I can't change the direction of the wind, but I can adjust my sails to always reach my destination."
Valerie
"I can't change the direction of the wind, but I can adjust my sails to always reach my destination." ~ author unknown
...so I told him good luck, and I knew he would do well. I almost wanted to ask again if he looked into MC this morning (I'm certain he had the time), but I didn't. I guess I didn't want to feel the disappointment again of H not following through with turning his WORDS into ACTIONS. I want to SEE that he's serious about MC, but I think he's waiting to hear me say that I will give him another try....I'm not prepared to do that. I want to see that he means what he says. In fact, I remember asking him about MC (if he had looked into it) on Sunday night when he came to drop off the kids. He said, "I was hoping you could help me out with that. I thought maybe you'd know where to look for one." I told him, "All you need to do is pick up the phone book, H. It's that simple...but make sure they are a MC. Not just an ordinary one." He didn't say anything.
