After picking the kids up from school today, this song played on the radio. I think it's about 7 years old, but I remember it so well...and it just has my name written all over it.
"Barely Breathing" by Duncan Sheik
I know what you're doing I see it all too clear I only taste the saline When I kiss away your tears You really had me going Wishing on a star The black holes that surround you Are heavier by far
I believed in your confusion You were so completely torn It must have been that yesterday Was the day that I was born There's not much to examine Nothing left to hide You really can't be serious if you have to ask me why I say goodbye
Cause I am barely breathing And I can't find the air Don't know who I'm kidding Imagining you care And I could stand here waiting A fool for another day I don't suppose it's worth the price, it's worth the price The price that I would pay
Everyone keeps asking What's it all about? Used to be so certain Now I can't figure out What is this attraction? I only feel the pain Nothing left to reason And only you to blame Will it ever change?
Cause I am barely breathing And I can't find the air Don't know who I'm kidding Imagining you care And I could stand here waiting A fool for another day I don't suppose it's worth the price, it's worth the price The price that I would pay... But I'm thinking it over anyway I'm thinking it over anyway
I've come to find I may never know Your changing mind Is it friend or foe? I rise above And sink below Every time You come and go... Please don't come and go
Cause I am barely breathing And I can't find the air Don't know who I'm kidding Imagining you care And I could stand here waiting A fool for another day I don't suppose it's worth the price, it's worth the price The price that I would pay... But I'm thinking it over anyway I'm thinking it over anyway
I know what you're doing I see it all too clear
Ok, obviously I have too much free time if I'm able to sit here and type out the whole song !...but I thought it really hit home (except for the part about "only you to blame" -- the R's downfall is on both of us). I remember hearing it after having a nasty fight with H long ago.....and here I am now...years later...still feeling like I'd be a fool to give H another chance....still feeling and seeing his phony tears....maybe they're real for him, but they're not for me...and I'm STILL thinking it over again.
What's that saying?..."Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, shame on ME."...I'm waaaayyyyy past twice.
Thanks for listening.
Valerie
"I can't change the direction of the wind, but I can adjust my sails to always reach my destination."
Valerie
"I can't change the direction of the wind, but I can adjust my sails to always reach my destination." ~ author unknown
!...but I thought it really hit home (except for the part about "only you to blame" -- the R's downfall is on both of us). I remember hearing it after having a nasty fight with H long ago.....and here I am now...years later...still feeling like I'd be a fool to give H another chance....still feeling and seeing his phony tears....maybe they're real for him, but they're not for me...and I'm STILL thinking it over again.
