Still trying....

[DonH]

Perhaps then H has to earn back your trust and show you what is going to be different and show you that you won't regret it rather than tell you. Talk is cheap. He needs to show the changes. I do feel bad in continuing to come at you with these things - espeically when I clearly do not have all of the details and am not living your life. In the end, you have to decide and people like me can only challange and support you. I do see you saying and feeling so many of the things of the WAW at this point though. How you feel nothing for him, how you can't trust, how you have tried and tried. It is straight from the WAW play book. I say that not that you are "playing" at all mind you just that the lines are so classic. Perhaps time will really tell in this case. It may be a short period of time until H proves you right. Maybe all I can suggest at this point is that you at least leave the door open. I am just so very sure that if I took out your name and references and posted your comments on the board under someone else's name that so many of our readers here would say "yep, she is a classic WAW" The things is - you are not. You are better than that. I think that is why you are struggling. I hope whatever happens that it comes after a lot of hard work and after leaving no stone unturned. I hope that if you do end it that you can say that you really did try everything and that you did earn your way out of this M. Anything less and you are just letting your self down. I truly hope you are still taking my harsh challanges in the productive way that I truly do mean them.