I don't say much around here, only when something strikes me that may make someone think a bit.
My W did not believe that I could change. She then believed that I could not keep up the changes etc etc.....The target kept moving. It seemed to me that she was picking out the convenient reason(s) to justify what she already determined to be what she wanted.
You have legitimate reasons to never want the old H back. Can he change? Would you want your marriage if he did?
Are you asking yourself questions to fit the answers or trying to figure out answers to your questions? Make any sense?