I got together with a few friends, and we decided to go to Reno for a couple of days. We stayed at the Silver Legacy -- very pricy but not too bad when you split it 4 ways -- and we had FUN, FUN, FUN !!! I didn't do too good at the tables , but just to be out socializing made me feel sooo ALIVE again !
And something quite interesting happened.....I caught the attention of a member of the opposite sex ! A few of them actually! It was VERY nice to feel that way again -- to feel pretty, attractive, desirable, feminine, special, enjoyed, HAPPY.
There was a feeling of awkwardness as well since I am still M'ed and because it has been 12 YEARS .....but it was NICE . I took a look at myself in the mirror today, and for the first time in a long time, I felt and saw myself as being attractive....and it's because I was smiling ....that IS an appealing thing....being happy is VERY appealing.
I know I'm not anywhere near being ready for a new R again. I'm not looking to get into another one, but sometimes I feel like I wouldn't mind dating a little. Just getting out and enjoying the companionship of a man......these are only feelings. It's ok to feel, right?
I hope everyone had a great weekend! Thanks for listening.
JV
"I can't change the direction of the wind, but I can adjust my sails to always reach my destination."
Last edited by JVJKB; 09/05/0511:38 PM.
Valerie
"I can't change the direction of the wind, but I can adjust my sails to always reach my destination." ~ author unknown
-- and we had FUN, FUN, FUN 
, but just to be out socializing made me feel sooo ALIVE again 
