D, please be sure to take the I-80 turnoff; I REALLY need those vibes. I just feel so out of it right now.
After I posted, I received a phone call from my mom asking if H and I had talked about D or reconciliation yet. I had told her earlier in August that I was leaning towards a D, she seemed supportive of it, but now today when we talked, she told me, "Just don't lose sight of what's really at stake here, JV. THE BOYS. If you and H could work it out, that would be best for them. I know it, your sisters know it,....I think you know it, too."
Can anyone say PRESSURE?
If that wasn't enough, I just came back from taking cupcakes to S6's class for his birthday. Just as I walked into the classroom, they were singing "Happy B-day" to him. His teacher had a fake mini-cake with real candles for him to blow out and make a wish. After he did, S6 came up to me and whispered, "Guess what, Mom? I wished for Dad to come back home with us!"
Ok.....this is very hard. I'm going to try to relax and settle down -- I'm not hysterical or anything. Just a bundle of nerves and feeling rather confused, I guess.
Gibeon, I'm sorry, but I'll respond to your question a bit later. I just don't feel like I'm able to give a clear answer right now.
Thanks for listening.
JV
"I can't change the direction of the wind, but I can adjust my sails to always reach my destination."
Valerie
"I can't change the direction of the wind, but I can adjust my sails to always reach my destination." ~ author unknown
