Still trying....

[ValerieA]

...I'll take a Smirnoff Ice......Ok, make that 4

Alright, let's make that at least a 12-pack.

It has been one he**ish day.

Not only did I have the episode with my mother today, I also had to deal with MIL AND H. I have aged about 10 years in the last 12 hours, I feel like a nervous wreck, and I've got the jitters.

There was the whole issue of "the miraculous XXXX talk" and my mom telling me not to forget that she and my stepdad would like to have the boys at least one weekend a month. Nothing wrong with that -- I told her they could have the boys over on one of my weekends.

Then I get a phone call from MIL after she just spoke with H about the schedule, she's all emotional, and she wants 2 guaranteed days a week with them. I asked her to work something out with H, she said ok, but then she wants to know what 2 days she can see the boys....Did I miss something? I thought I just asked her to discuss it with H, and she told me ok.....?????.....So I repeated myself, and MIL wanted to know why I couldn't just give her the days.

I'm losing it. I'm losing my grip on myself. I told MIL that she will have to work it out with H from now on and make arrangements to see the kids when he has them. She was quiet then she said ok again and goodbye.

H called a couple of hours later and said MIL called him crying that I was being mean to her. I told him I was sorry and didn't know that I was, I told him about her pressuring me for 2 days a week with the kids after I had the ordeal with my own mother, and when MIL wouldn't let it go, I just didn't know what else to say or do. He said ok, he was sorry to hear about my day, and he would work everything out with his mom.

Then he asked me if his latest unemployment check had come yet, and I told him no. He asked if I had sent out his claim form for him (it comes with every check he gets and he must fill it out in order to get the next one), and I told him that when his last check arrived, I gave it to him and told him he needed to be sure to complete it and mail it in. H became frantic saying, "Well I thought you were going to do that for me! Now what?! That's the only income I have coming in, JV! And YOU didn't send it out for me??!!! F***! Thanks so much for looking out for me! I gotta go so I can tear apart this place looking for it because I don't even remember you giving it to me!" CLICK!!



I DID NOT tell H I was going to do it for him NOR did he ask me to .........I love how when things go wrong, I'm beaten up for it.

If it's even possible, I'm going to try and relax now. Thank you for listening.

JV

"I can't change the direction of the wind, but I can adjust my sails to always reach my destination."