Thanks for stopping by again Cobra. You keep my thinking cap on, which is a good thing.
If she knows you are leaving her, how do you think she will respond?
I could see W going any number of ways. Mostly away from me but that's probably just fear and insecrurity talking. So honestly I don't know what affect it could have other than probably shaking things up and obviously I'm not a boat rocker. But every day I get closer and closer to rocking the boat (see journaling below).
Journaling:
Personally I enjoyed the Thanksgiving weekend. It was by far nothing like a traditional T-day for my entire family. My mom was in the hospital recovering from her knee replacement so much of my free time was spent visiting her. The big traditional family gathering with mom's side of the family was canceled due to mom's surgery and my cousin's latest impending childbirth at any moment. So my B and SIL had a small T-day gathering at their place with just them, S6, D9 and me. We had a great time.
Friday morning I transfered the kids to W for the next few days and then watched the Huskers finally play football for once against the CU Buffalos. I also got some much needed chores done around the house taking advantage of being kid free for a few days. I thought about putting up x-mas lights on the house but S6 wanted me to wait so he could be around to help. So now I'll be risking life and limb to get the lights up in arctic weather but at least I'll have excellent help.
Saturday was more work around the house and yard. I took the evening shift of staying with mom. We watched lots of football. Finally left the hospital around 9 pm and needed to get something to eat. I also wanted to watch one of the football games that wasn't on regular tv so I stopped in a sportsbar. After eating my chef salad (had to get some veggies into me) and downing a brew or two, I noticed a couple attractive women playing pool. I felt a little "pervie" but after a while I deciphered these two were alone and not waiting for their "men" to arrive. I casually strolled over and played a little pool on the table next to them and struck up a convo with them. They were nice and challenged me to a game of 8-ball. They killed me (I'm way rusty at pool after a 20 year layoff). I could tell they were just being polite to me so I excused myself and headed home.
This was a huge step for me because I've never done anything like this ever. I was scared sh*tless but I figured WTF, I'm all DB'ed up. I could tell they were having a girls night out and weren't interested in playing the guy-girl game (or they just weren't interested in me) but it was fun to just pretend I was in a movie or something and plot out my strategy and approach some attractive women with zero expectations other than to try something new. So what if they might reject me? I've had the biggest rejection of my life and I've lived through that. Nothing ventured, nothing gained.
Sunday I invited my current and former work friends to visit my favorite museum. We had a good time. After taking them home I headed out to meet W for a kid swap. While driving there I realized I felt numb. Not sad. Not happy. Just neutral about having to drive 45 minutes to get my kids for the upcoming week. Just part of the normal routine now.
So after my little baptism into approaching women, I'm actively looking for other ways to possibly meet women. I'm not going to go out sniffing. I just want to put myself in more situations where if I see someone interesting, I'll ask them to go for coffee or dinner sometime. Quite a paradigm shift for the worlds biggest introvert.
It would seem that I'm in the minority here on the BB because I'm feeling a good PMA.
But every day I get closer and closer to rocking the boat (see journaling below).
