Talked to C yesterday. She pretty much echoed NY's statement - some no pressure dating would be a good thing to try now or in the near future.
C also gave me some topics that I could bring up when W and I are having a serious "no time limits" talk. She suggested that it would probably be a good thing for me to lay down my cards and let W know that I feel like I could move on if things don't work out. I prefer to reconcile but I now know that I will be able to live a life of my own. Of course I'd tell her in a no pressure way that didn't threaten W, just stating the facts. I'd be letting W know how I'm feeling now. If she wants to return the favor of letting me know how she feels these days, fine, but she doesn't have to. She may not know how she feels either.
I'm not sure if I want/need to do tell W this. My actions are probably already letting her know. Her actions and attitude lead me to believe that she feels I've accepted the S and could go either way. If the moment presents itself where telling W about my feelings just seems right, I'll do it then.
I actually like the place we're in right now. We seem like good friends. There's not much R talk going on. Just every now and then the stress in W builds up and she blows some steam about the sitch (maybe once a week). W is still on eggshells around me when talking about weekend plans and kid logistics, but I'm very up front with her and level headed when we talk about plans. I used to get emotional or moody/angry when talking about plans but now I'm more controlled. W is still testing me (thus the eggshells) and she's not comfortable yet talking about what we do or plan to do when we don't see each other for a day or two. It's kind of fun to watch her reaction to my calm cool collected, I'm okay, you're okay attitude. She likes what she see's but she's still waiting for the old ThatGuy to return. So far he's nowhere to be found.
