Feeling pretty good today. I'm hesitant to post for fear of jinxing my PMA.
W and I went out last night to shop for b-day gifts (mainly a bicycle) for S5. He'll be S6 tomorrow. The evening went very well. I was in a good positive mood and we joked and kidded around in Wal-mart. (I rode the bike around and almost wiped out the greeting card section, oops.) After shopping we stopped at a Starbucks. First time I've ever been in one so this was a 180 for me. I stole the Starbucks idea from bigAl's thread or maybe it was RNC814's, so thanks. W enjoyed her cafe-mochachino-frappe-whatever, and I listend to her talk and talk. None of our conversations ever came close to R talk. I made sure to steer clear of that.
I made more eye contact with W last night than probably the previous 2 years combined. I smiled, made her laugh, and not once did anything during the evening even come close to making me angry or even feel hurt. I wouldn't let it. I was on a roll and having fun for once. W talked about her family BBQ from the previous weekend. (First time in nearly 20 years I have not attended.) I couldn't help noticing that OM never was brought up. Maybe W figured she'd spend the day free of the screwed up men in her life so neither of us were invited. I had assumed OM would be there. I don't really want to know if he was. I could ask BIL, SIL, or even D9 or S5 but I ain't going there b/c what difference does it make?
W also asked if she and the kids could spend the night at the house since they would be coming back to town the next morning. It would save her 140 miles of driving. She asked in her usual weird stand-offish way. "Is it okay if I sleep on your couch tonight? If not, I can find somewhere else to sleep." I acted "as if" and said "Why not? It would be crazy to drive all that way." So W spent the night on the couch.
In the morning I woke her to allow her and the kids time to get ready for her first appointment. She was all smiles and thanked me for going shopping and also for the coffee. We both agreed that we had some fun and left it at that. Then I left for work after we exchanged many polite good-byes and have a great days.
If I can keep this up for say.....20 thousand more times, maybe we'll have something. In other words, I realize this is one tiny babystep in the marathon.
We will be eating out for S5's b-day tomorrow, and he's having a party on Saturday too, so I'll have more chances soon to show the new positive I-don't-give-a-f**k-about-OM ThatGuy.
