Thank you for the kind words. Those words of encouragement are what keep me on track.
I know the way back and it would be so easy just to go back down that LD path. It's so much easier when you don't care, so much easier when you don't need anything from anybody else, so much easier when you expectations are so low that it's impossible not to meet them. Easier is not better, though. I will not concede my progress for anyone and that includes my H. If I have to be HD in my relationship because my H doesn't understand the nature of my (former) disinterest in sex, then so be it. But I will not tolerate being punished for the rate of my sexual growth for very long. I have given H a fair taste of life with a HDW and he seemed to enjoy it. If he rejects that so he can punish me, then shame on him.
I know that general consensus is turnabout is fair play and my answer to that is that I gave as much as I had in me as often as I possibly could. It wasn't enough for H, but I never stopped trying to get it right.
I don't mind the sun sometime
The images it shows
I can taste you on my lips
And smell you in my clothes
Cinnamon and Sugar
And softly spoken lies
You never know just how you look
Through someone elses eyes
BHS-"Pepper"
