Thank you for the insight. Maybe I misconstrued what H really wanted. I am afraid that I overshot what he envisioned as a harmonious R. It may well be that he just wants me to want sex when he wants it. It could be a possibility that dragging my caveman back to the cave and having my way with him is not his thing.
I'm finding that he doesn't want me to kiss, hug, hold, flirt, or touch him in any way. The whole irrational jealousy thing is kicking in for me. I know that he may not have any desire, but my experience over 10 years of marriage is that if the wind blows in the right direction, H is ready and willing. Why all of the sudden, no desire, even avoiding all physical contact with me? It just doesn't add up.
I worked to get where I am in relation to my sexuality and have no desire to give up my hard won growth. I don't intend to put up with crappy behavior because of what may be going on with him.
If question H about what is going on with him, he just clams up and acts cranky to punish me for broaching a topic that he doesn't want to talk about.
I don't mind the sun sometime
The images it shows
I can taste you on my lips
And smell you in my clothes
Cinnamon and Sugar
And softly spoken lies
You never know just how you look
Through someone elses eyes
BHS-"Pepper"
