Good for you, you dreamer. W called me at 2:30 AM and woke me up (after 14 years as a flight attendant she still has trouble calculating time zones.) I was dreaming about my W, but in the dream I wasn't kissing her.
I swear that all I want is a lazy afternoon with W, no pressure to do this or that. The weather here has been fantastic. I would like to go a whole afternoon with her, maybe in the yard, neither of us saying a word, just being comfortable together.
It's not that I've given up on sex; it's just not a priority now. I need to feel safe with her again. That sounds pathetic, but I'm in safe mode right now.
