Thank you so much for sharing that. I will check out your older threads for sure.
Quote: can’t change the fact that I caused a lot of pain. It doesn’t change the fact that the idealism and the innocence we had pre-A is forever gone. It doesn’t change the fact that W will probably never have the total, complete, 100% trust in me that she had before.
I can soo relate to what you are saying here. Especially the innocence and idealism being gone...it really is sad. Every time we watch a movie where they mention cheating or someone *is* cheating, I wonder if H is personalizing the events on the tv.
It's really great that you and your W have been able to get past the A. It's been a little over a year since I confessed my betrayal and H is still very focused on "making me pay". It's tough.
What has transpired in your R that made it possible for W to forgive you? Did she actually tell you "I forgive you"? Do you think religion plays a part in any way for the two of you?
"Happiness is a butterfly, which, when pursued, is always just beyond your grasp, but which, if you will sit down quietly, may alight upon you."
