Gosh Sikan, would it be appropriate to respond to every post on this thread? I can relate to so many of the things you have written. Insecurity once the friendship with OW ended.. and the fact that it ended over hurt feelings and not because H chose the M over the A. That was a BIGGY for me. It's a tape that has ran in my head that I just once want to hear him tell her what a mistake their relationship was, and that he loves me. Getting better though, and he has acknowledged that I feel this way and he understands. How's it going on your end?
Also can relate to an H who doesn't have a lot of friends. My H keeps his social life almost totally separate from our family life. Except our church friends. He knows a lot of people and when we're out together he sees them, but doesn't introduce me! Still, he has few MF that he socializes with. Just a couple of golf buddies and I don't like one of them. But, Ive backed off criticizing that friend because I want to encourage H to develop those friendships.
Gonna keep reading..just wanted to let you know that I understand so much of what you've felt/are feeling. Maybe the healing process goes through very similar phases for everyone.