HP, I also see similarities between our H's. And your having this pelvic pain has made you more like me ( shutting down and becoming LD with our spouses). The detachment you're feeling will not be forever---it's just part of the cycle, the self-protective part. Remember to do nice things for yourself, esp having 3 young ones. I am going to catch up on your thread and join you there when I have a bit more time.