If I'm totally honest with myself, the reason I don't want to even tell OM "give me 6 months" or whatever is because I like his attention NOW. Plus, I probably fear he would just tell me "nice knowing you, but I'm done." I crave that attention even if it does come in the form of one email every few weeks. I still get excited when I see his name pop up in my mail. Isn't that telling me something. Why would I want something that is causing only more confusion in my life.
