Chrissy... That idea would have appealed to me year ago, when I was more idealistic about where I could go with my sensuality. Now I realize that kind of thing would be seen as pressure by my H. I tend to go from overly optimistic to depressed, so I am just trying to be realistic now.
I am realizing there was a point in my life, before marriage and kids, where I could have/should have taken the opportunity for some exploratory sexual fun, but I closed the door on that to take my life to a different place. Those feelings have resurfaced but I am at a different path in the road. My H also closed the door to many potential options, so together we will try to make the best we can out of our lives and be grateful for what is with no regret ( okay... a little regret).
