At this point, I recognize H and I have a good, healthy thing going much of the time. I have come to the conclusion that it will only derail us if I push for more. I can't use sex with him to make up for some inner comfort that I am looking for, or press for some new excitement or thrill, without jeopardizing the connection we have now. I appreciate the efforts H is making and I don't want him feeling a sense of constant disappointment.
I have been afraid of detaching from my sexuality, afraid of lsoing this wonderful feeling of tingles and need and want. But, some detachment is necessary right now to preserve what we now have.
I'll will follow the oldies threads and come here with weekly updates. Thanks to all who have been helping me along.
