Lil... You are very intuitive. I don't think H truly absorbs how much work and effort I am putting into all of this. Of course, it my choice, but sometimes I am not even aware of how on edge I am. He seems to know how to bait me into anger and doesn't see the toll it's left on me. He mistakes my fieriness ( is that a word?) with strength, and we've already discussed the crying stuff.
I feel I am suppressing my sexual feelings, compromising by making a schedule or ML when he is up to it...there's more here, sometimes the quality of our ML is not the best for me... trying to move us along, being understanding...and he makes a joke about it? I would love the comfort of his body and he sees me as infringing upon him? It just threw me way off and I felt depleted.
In answer to your question, I do think that he sensed my vulnerability at that point and came around...but how do we break this? I can't play at " damsel in distress" so I guess it will take my having a true nervous brekdown to have a decent sex life.
