Quote: Lil... You know how GEL said that she rarely cries? Well, I am the opposite of that...my emotions are very apparent, and H is immune to a lot of it. But in this case, I was very anxious, very sad, really at a breaking point, and I think H sensed it.
The emotions and drama of it all stirred up the passion, but it really is draining, and I hope we can find passion from more of a place of " good feeling" between the two of us.
I also cry a lot. TV commercials make me cry. I'm just a total softie.
Regarding the ML: you said the emotions and drama stirred up passion... why do you suppose this is? Is the the drama itself that stirs his passion? Or the fact that you are at the end of your rope? If the latter, what is it about your desperation that releases the part of him that can be passionate? I feel like there is a kernel of something important here... when you are a puddle of melting emotion does he then feel safe with you and can approach you? does he want to protect you? is he able to feel strong because you seem "weak"?
I mean, for some people seeing their SO in a "meltdown" sitch can bring forth strong feelings of tenderness... in others, it can bring out feelings of disgust.
