I am not embarrassed to be HERE - I just mean that in public, I feel like people can see through me. When I was in the bookstore picking out "surviving infidelity" books, I felt like everyone in the store could feel when I entered and knew that someone in the store had been cheated on. Crazy, huh? I hide the title of the book when I am at the gym because I don't want the guy on the machine next to me to look over and pity me or have contempt for me. In short, I guess I feel like I am wearing a scarlet letter. I know it's crazy, and no one else cares around me. But I FEEL like they do, and that's what matters to me right now.
