I couldn't even begin to imagine the pain I caused her. Whatever I could think of it would be thousands of times more. I never wanted to hurt her. I guess that's why I didn't tell her when I resumed contact again with the OW. My insecurities? Well, I'm a little overweight for one. Not a lot, but enough to keep me from taking my shirt off in public. I also want everyone to like me. I constantly have to make people happy and I enjoy being happy with them. I guess I have to be the center of attention. Problem is that when I am, I'm usually embarrassed by it too, you know, when everyone is looking at me. I'm really hoping that this talk with my mother will help me hash through this. I'm sorry I brought you to tears.
