Here I am and here's the bomb. Though a year ago I tried to break off with the OW, I was unsuccesful. Gradually we started communicating again and I kept it from my W. It was not a clean break. I kept all the notes and stuff she had given me. They were tied in trashbags. I did not look at them, but I had them none the less. My W found out by listening to my work voicemail. She met me in a parking lot and gave me five minutes to explain. Literally, my life flashed before my eyes. I felt awful that I let her down, AGAIN, and that I had lied to everyone who knew about it. Including everyone here on this board. I called the OW from the parking lot and said on her voice mail that I did not love her, I loved my wife, and never to try to contact me again. I asked my W Monday if I could download a book that we found on this site aimed towards the cheater and she handed it to me. She had already done it. Today, we mailed the OW a letter stating what I had already said on the phone. Please, do not think of us as failing. My W is still with me and we are trying to get through this. I love my wife dearly and completely and am ready to deal with the fallout of this. I know I've hurt her, betrayed her, and embarrassed her beyond words and that it will take longer "this time"(I hear that alot) to heal. I firmly believe we can and I am completely focused on repairing our marriage. I'm sure everyone will have questions for me and I will do the best I can to answer them.
